haiz

apparently... my blogger's using javascript. and that means all the people who are using macs.. aren't able to read my posts. so... double work has to be done. tsk tsk.

Thursday, October 27, 2005



i've recently come out of a relationship. disastrous or not, hazardous or not.. i really can't put my finger on it just yet.

and i know it's really not good form to like someone else so soon after that. but i can't help myself. she's so sweet.

but i'm taking it slow. i usually plunge headlong into things. but since i'm all grown up and all.. (woe betide me).. i'm cautiously dipping my toes in that funny thing called love.


Wednesday, October 26, 2005



ok ok ok. i changed my template. again. i'm stuck at home with nothing to do. waddya expect?

i thought the pictures were rather apt. took them off deviantart. haha.. and i can tell that alot of people are agreeing with me. but ohwells. i like this. plain. simple. nice. hopefully my life will be the same. plain. simple. nice.

dinner on monday was good with cheryl and drake. i had loads of fun. just sitting there.. having damn freaking cheap prata (free actually cos the guy forgot to charge us).. and talking.

we got around to listing our one mistake that we will change if we could go back in time. drake's got 2, that greedy pig. cheryl says she doesn't have any.. that liar. *lol* i don't believe you whatsoever cheryl. and i have so many that to choose one would be quite a task. in the end.. i felt that i should have worked harder at maths.. cos it was the one thing that pulled down my results. i could probably do something more worthwhile with my life now instead of hating myself being in a job with no prospects.

i went for my bike lesson. and i passed. not before i got all wet again. i got wet the first time due to the damned rain (i was standing under the opened skies waiting for a stupid cab) and the second time.. the pylon area was so wet that when i weaved in and out.. ta daaaa. so... my pants got wet.. twice.. in a day.. and not in the good way. i told pau and she told me she laughed out loud whilst she was talking to her mum. control yourself laaaa.

so the conclusion of it is.. i got sick. really rather sick. fever, flu, sore throat and the whole works. i went to work cos i wasn't sure my boss would allow me to take an mc. and i went off after going to the clinic.

met up with pau to look for queen and vern at sgh. *hope you'll be able to get that transplant* it was a good day. flight plan was awwright...the ending was good.. but it didn't quite make up for the 1 hour of sian-ness i was feeling.. the movie was sooo slow at the start!! after that was slacking at rocky's.. pool at monster.. and slacking at macs..

even i don't get how we can cram so many things in one day.

anywayz. i'm sick again. i woke up with the worst throat and my head's pounding like a thousand nails are being drilled in.

how do you know you're in love... how do you know if you're attracted to that someone? when your phone beeps and you hope it's her? when you go online and you hope she's there? when everything you think about somehow relates to that particular person?

how do you know you're out of love? is hate a prerogative? when you read her blog and see she's happy with someone else and you don't quite care? when you think about the past and you are amazed you lasted that long in the first place?

ah wells. i don't know the answers to the questions i've posed. but i feel like i'm being sedated. everything is moving in slow motion. and i want to find a desire within me.